by JohnBarleycorn » Tue Jan 17, 2012 1:44 pm
Its me !
Alive and well !
And I can honestly say, I am happier, more positive and more peaceful than ever in my life. So it goes to show that its possible to survive such an experience, and come out of it better and stronger.
It taught me a great deal, but strangely, I have an even higher regard for the human spirit, and the essential decency of people. And I am even more compassionate than before, which I like very much.
And I still have no ill feeling towards the stalker and her handful of friends. Despite being such an appalling person, prepared to try murder, accusations of rape etc, and poisoning her own dogs, I can see she was a desperately tormented and unhappy person, as were her friends. No happy, well adjusted person could ever take the first step to what she did. So I will not condemn her. I am just glad I am happy and peaceful, and not in her shoes. Her mind must be a very painful and horrible place. While mine is like Moomin Valley !
She always boasted of police protection, and openly stated she was above the law. And the police always confirmed that, in my dealings with them. Well, it took new police into the area to sort it out. Turns out her partner was a police officer, and corrupt police officers were actually protecting her. Maybe hard to believe in 2011, when we hope the police are more accountable, but fact, nonetheless. It explains everything that happened, and why the police was so disgraceful.
She was arrested a year ago, and I think many things happened behind the scenes. The police are now paranoid about my safety. They told me that I was now going to be protected, and if I called 999, they would be with me in 2 minutes, not the twenty they had suggested previously. They have made it very clear they are looking after me now, and even call me on my mobile to check on my safety, if anything suspicious happens within a mile of my home.
So all is quiet and peaceful !
I suspect I am still in danger, but I have my dogs, and I think it'll be quite hard to try another attempt on my life.
So thats over four years of hassle. A very strange time indeed.
Would I change it, with a magic wand ?
Not sure. I liked who I was before, but I like myself even more now. I have grown so much, and learnt so much. I haver learnt so much about people, and learnt who my friends were, as well as who I couldn't trust.
I still fly the world, and have great experiences, although I no longer cycle, as I feel too vulnerable. She tried to kill me with a car last time, and I think it would be to easy to try again. She has no limits, and made enough death threats that I need to be aware, and not put myself in harms way.
And I still read VF everyday. And obviously I am still vegan, and will always be vegan !
I eat to nourish my compassion, not my greed
I'm the man they couldn't kill ! I cannot be destroyed with conventional weapons !
And probably the former fastest British Vegan 10, 25 and 50 mile TT rider. Probably.
