Are you straight edge?
I'm a swimmer too. Do you compete? Do you have any swim goals (be it general fitness, or particular times, or events, or distances to complete)?
"The worker has the right to leave his boss, but can she do it? And if she does quit him, is it in order to lead a free life; where she will have no master but herself? No, she leaves to sell herself to another employer. She's driven by the same hunger. Thus the worker's liberty is only a theoretical freedom, lacking any means of realization; an utter falsehood."